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Still I'm feeling fine, which is kind of uncommon. My "feeling fine periods" are normally of short duration.

That's why I enjoy it even more I even begin to like my liguistics seminar which normally is deadly boring!

Probably it's the new love. During the first weeks it was more stressful than enjoyable for me with my new boyfriend. It's hard for me to get close to somebody and feel comfortable.
Especially after 6 years with another man. You can not just leave that behind and start something new, especially if you didn't break up because something went wrong but because the feeling fell asleep. My ex-boyfriend still is an important person to me and I was so afraid to have hurt him so deeply that he can't deal with me anymore. But he took it like nothing which encourages me to feel that it was the right decision. We meet, drink a coffee and talk about everything like in former time but for me it's a totally different feeling. It's somehow sad when love turns into a strange feeling...hard to describe...somehow like the love for a brother maybe.

Slowly I can stop thinking about the past and start new. That's really exciting! Soon I will have all the power to be creative again, play guitar, draw, write...what ever I want! Emotional chaos just stops everything in my live but now I can get going again!