Tuesday Nov 29, 2005

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well another day another dollar. that's exactly what i need to. i have never lived by myself before. i always had roommates and family i lived with. so it's relly wierd when you want to turn to your side expecting someone to talk to, but there is no one there. that feeling really sucks. but i'll sit here and drink my new castle and try to go out and meet people but that won't change the fact that i'm not ready to live by myself yet. and the worst thing about it is eating alone by yourself. like if you filmed yourself eating by yourself with some unique camera angle and added sad music to it. it would be the most depressing shit ever.
serendipitous:
Living by myself was the best time for me... it made me learn the most about myself and what I needed/wanted, good or bad.

My mom went from living with her parents to living with my father (for 26 years). When they divorced, she had never really lived by herself. More than 10 years later, she dreads ever living by herself... do you want to be 60 fearing living alone?

Living alone: you have to do everything and there is no one to blame. Plus, it gives you time to think. Sure it can get lonely if you let it. If you don't, you can do things you like or look into potential interests you never knew existed. Point being, you might discover a lot about yourself if you let yourself. Take some classes, find a new hobby... you might just find something you can be passionate about (or at least enjoy for a while wink ).

It'll get easier... that I promise!

xoxo

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