fruitless

well i found out the suspension is this weekend. i was hoping it was next weekend because now i don't have any body to talk to me while i'm going up. i need someone because i just become a huge fucking ball of nerves. dammit i was so excited too. anyway ihave been trying to clean my apartment
but i'm lacking the motivation. i really just want to watch t.v. but i have been boycotting it for months. i have to work on friday and maybe saturday. and then sat night is the suspension and sunday i'm gonna be really soar so i plan on drinking heavily all day sunday. my partner left me and went to chicago this week. i kinda already miss her but i'll try to keep busy over the weekend. have a safe and happy holiday everyone.