I'm failing at being happy.
"She gets high, She gets lost, She gets drowned by the cost
Twice a day, every week, all her life." Life by Our Lady Peace
I hate crying. Today is Thursday. Thursdays were always our day. We went out to dinner. We would come home usually: watch a movie/drink/smoke/go to Presque/Escanaba/hang out with Snowball/stare at our laptops/pretend to do homework/nap/do something really stupid or crazy. Fuck this. This happened in JULY. Why can't I just move on? Why do I think of her every fucking day when I'm doing the most mundane things. I just want my friend back dammit. That's all I want. I would give anything to have her here. Anything. Sometimes I really wonder why the fuck I bother with anything.
/rant. Sorry, I'll try not to be so negative, and needy, and everything else that I am. I'm just not a good person.
edited because I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown.
"She gets high, She gets lost, She gets drowned by the cost
Twice a day, every week, all her life." Life by Our Lady Peace
I hate crying. Today is Thursday. Thursdays were always our day. We went out to dinner. We would come home usually: watch a movie/drink/smoke/go to Presque/Escanaba/hang out with Snowball/stare at our laptops/pretend to do homework/nap/do something really stupid or crazy. Fuck this. This happened in JULY. Why can't I just move on? Why do I think of her every fucking day when I'm doing the most mundane things. I just want my friend back dammit. That's all I want. I would give anything to have her here. Anything. Sometimes I really wonder why the fuck I bother with anything.
/rant. Sorry, I'll try not to be so negative, and needy, and everything else that I am. I'm just not a good person.
edited because I feel like I'm having a nervous breakdown.
osoesoteric:
i think it's starting somewhat soon... 
tawanise:
gald to hear that you are still with us and sorry i have been trying to figure a lot of shit out and if you still want to talk thats cool, see i am Mr. Nice Asshole, and you forgot to tell me how you try to stay away from it.