frigga

i am in a shitty mood. i have been for days and days.
i have no patience for anyone outside of my family, and little enough for them.
i'm so tired, i'm so annoyed all the time, and then i get annoyed that i'm annoyed.
my period isn't due for 4 moon phases (new moon, opposite of a warewolf)
i'm doing pretty well in my classes though.
and they are halfway over.i'm not doing so well in math actualy, i have full points for homework! i DO it! but sometimes it's wrong.
my midterm was dreadful.
i THOUGHT i did really well because i remembered how to do the problems but i didn't do a lot of the arithmatic right somewhere in the middle.
i'm really really slow at math and it's kind of embaressing, people always see me working on it, look what i'm doing and say "look how easy this is! here's how you do it" and i have to chase them off with a broom yelling "i fucking KNOW how to do it! i'm just really slow at arithmatic!! fucking bastard!"
like my dad.
he's a mathematition. he would always sit next to me when i was doing my homework and tell me the answers. "dad, i need to show my work, show how i did it, not just have the right answer." and he didn't know how! and then he's yel at me for taking too much time.
he told me i was lazy.
my mom told me i had a learning disability in math, i went through hundreds of tests and allsorts of classes with the inbred children of fresno who had difficulties reading, socially, everywhere.
i have discovered that i DO NOT have a learning disability in math.
i have orginizational issues.
it's much easier to deal with and i don't have to be embaressed anymore.
because as much as they told me it was not anything to be ashamed of, people told me i wqas retarded, and i felt humiliated.
oh wait. i'm totally over it. ON to the revolutionary war.