friedhamster

I swore off drinking a few nights ago... But I feel bad, really bad and I know going to booze is probably an awful idea but I'm going to do it anyways. I have two, maybe three beers around here someplace and a bottle of wine. I think I'll drink it all.

We broke up and it seems like it's for good this time. I have nothing to blame but my actions. I was awful. I was mean, to her and she gave me chance after chance. If I want to be with her, and god knows I do, I've gotta fix myself.

Yes I realize drinking isn't the best way to start out and fix ones self... Ugh, crap. Maybe I wont drink then. If I really want to be better in hopes of there being an 'us' again I should start out right I guess. Maybe I'll go for a drive or bike ride to clear my head. I always seem to feel better when I'm moving. Driving, walking, riding a bike, running, etc. It clears my head.

I need to go to Spider Murphy's too. I've gotta tell Stu that what he was planning on doing just isn't going to fly. I've thought about it and it's a cool idea (well could be depending on how he draws it) but it's... too big. I think I'm going to start getting tattoos that have meaning to me if I get any more. God knows I will too. And I know just what I'd like. I'll go see him tonight I guess.