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So, wow a lot happened today. I woke up smoked and went to go chill with my boy, his bro , and Heat. We chilled and Tyler had to go get his insulin. So after we got that we smoked and chilled and got hungrey. Then we picked up this girl from school. Then I got Callie and we smoked and we found out our friend Henry got raided. He only got caught with a scale. Then earlier my friend's boyfriend got arrested for possession. Then my boy [Tyler B.] his little brother got pulled over as I was dropping off Tyler. He had a bottle on him and was drunk. He is going to the army though. I guess they just let him off. The the cop was behind me and shit then we turned and it was all clear. So shit man it was a little intense today. Oh, and I found out Henry broke into the house he was suppost to be moving into on the 1st of January. As you can see today was eventful. Tomorrow I am just suppost to chill with Tyler so we shall see how it goes and what happens. By the way he is an amazing kisser and totally a sweet heart. He treats me so good. I can't believe I finally am moving when I meet a great guy. I am just so afraid he will just dip out when I tell him i am moving to Virginia. I don't want to lose him. I mean I will be back to visit all the time. It's not like I won't see him ever cause my family lives here. Sorry I am rambling on and on I am just fucked up and I think a lot when I am fucked up and I have to write it down some how. Watching myself type is very entertaining as well. Each key gets pushed so fast. I just am so scared he will just drop me. You would think if he cared he wouldn't, still though I just don't wanna be upset. Once again me = rambling. No one will probably read this. I am so nervous about driving by myself 600 miles. I don't know if I can. I might just chicken out. I am terrified to just jump in the world and not look back. I am scared to just take a flying leap. I won't be able to get fucked up anymore when I move either. I can't do drugs which might be tough for me. I will just have to figure it out I guess. I just feel like I need to move and I need to take off on my own and get my life together but, Tyler is here and I don't know if I could hack it without partying. What if I fall on my ass ya know? I will jsut have to get up and dust myself off. Well I have to go to work tomorrow at 11 so I should get some sleep. Goodnight all and to all a good fucking night.