Friday Feb 11, 2005

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I have always tried to look for the positive in things, and not be negative...I try this in everything I do, but once there is a chance that something is negative I run with it, obsess about it and it ends up killing me in the end.

I have been extremely blessed thus far, I know a girl who is stunning, beautiful, smart, open and most importantly honest. In the entire time I have known her she has been good to me, and I try to be good to her.

I freak out a lot, I freak out when new things come my way, being with a person where new things are bound to be coming your way is exciting, but for me, scary at the same time. I try to calm myself down to a manageable level but fail in most cases...

I guess my point is that I am scared that I freak out to much, loose the ability to calm down and loose the affection of the one person from whom I want it the most.

for that I am truly sorry

today is a new day
severus:
Hm... how do these freak outs show really? What kind of new stuff do you mean? I watched a horrible movie tonight, it was just for the Paper because it had to be reviewed... ohlala it was me, my boyfriend and 8 kids in the room. Haha. I took like four seats for myself and almost fell asleep. A really weird animated movie from Denmark. I think they tried to do a South Park thing but faiiiiiiled.


Then we went to an indian restaurant, I don't like indian food that much but my bf loves it so I said okay, whatever, and it was all right... you feel healthy at least instead of eating a pizza. Pizza... yum... blush

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