Up early...
Looking for some idea of what to do with my life...?
Got loads of options, but its difficult to choose between them. Tha shits Confusing
Do I go back to Hereford to live and work for a while?
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- that would mean not seeing my lover
Jive for a while
- I would have to rent a flat with a mate (so i'd be spending 'earned travel money' on rent
)
- Would end up seeing all my friends from 3 years ago, again.
Do I move to London?
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- same issue with rent
- I could live with my brother for a while
- everything seems to cost MORE in
The Big Smoke
Do I move back to South Africa and try get work in a game reserve?
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- I still have loads of family over there - haven't seen them for 10 years
- Its more dangerous travelling alone as a single girl
- I wouldn't be able to make as much money as I could here.
Only reason I need money is to pay off debts and then travel...I can't wait for that day!! Also needs to get 'me-self' a travel buddy 
Got some funky art ideas too...its a lot of work, but I reckon it will be fun...
I want to make some more videos of doing random things - like a piece of art, but edit speed and add effects...so it would be like a 30 second clip of a piece of art that took me 3 hours to create. If you know what I mean?
Only problems....I've lost my memory card for my camera
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I used to take my camera everywhere...film anything and everything that would look wicked in a video. I would always be the person 'snapping away', never really in the shots.
I have hundreds of hundreds of own made movies and tones of photos. I want to do something with them.
I've been wanting my camera
A Lot recently too, cause now that I've joined SG...theres always loads of things I want to take pics of and tell you about it.
Or just spending time with certain 'sexy' people, (you know who you are misses
)I'd love to film it and show you what we get up to. Saying that
Jive Bunny has a few cringe-worth videos she captured the other day...I need to nag her to see them ...
Other problem...My computer doesn't 'sit' well with downloaded movie editing programs..hence I dont have editing software to edit the films with Damn...there is a problem with this machine, but I can't seem to diagnose it
Anyways people...I'm going to Sort my life out now...
Peace 
Oh, and I am still undecided about my next tattoo. I was also considering a daffodil on my shoulder (symbolic to me). And I have no idea if I would ever have the balls to get my nipple pierced, though i think they look so sexy!
all I'll say is - whichever you choose you'll neverknow what would have happenedif you'd taken another option...therefore you can rest assured that the option you do take could well be the best outcome evenif it seems to have initally failed.
if you catch my drift...