freesia

I've been thinking....
I really don't think I'm able to be in a relationship.
I really liked this guy recently, and the less I've seen him, the less I like him.
He had me convinced that I was in love with him - after only 4 days!! Sounds crazy, but he was just perfect...such a gentleman and so talented.
Then he went away (on holiday) and the less I heard from him, the more I'm starting to despise him and wonder if a relationship would ever work out.
Im very picky...if the smallest thing annoys me about someone (firstly I'm too stupid to say anything...I want to avoid confrontation) so the anger builds up...then i get really pissed at little things cause i wont deal with the main problem.
What is wrong with me ?
I dont think I can let myself be happy with someone!
I even thought of turning lesbian a few times but that didnt work for me either...next step i think is beastiality (ha ha kidding!!)