freek

well i spent the evening last night watchin a soldier that od'd on sleeping pills and muscle relaxers. been up for over 36 hours now. nothing like finding a friend of yours fucked outta his gord tryin to kill himself. spent the evening in the hospital watching him to make sure he didnt try anything else. what ill never understand is why the hell do you even attempt to help the suicidal. if they feel that they are that much of a burden on society or that shit cant get better why waste time that can be spent on improving the larger picture tryin to save one person. you dont try to correct a horrible picture pixel by pixel. you only do that once it is the best it can be. far as im concerned you wanna die. then please do it outside so all we have to do is shovel up the pieces and hose down the blood. and yes i have been suicidal and yes i have delt with suicide on a friend and family basis. so you cant say ive never experianced it so thats why i dont understand.