freedonia

hey no worries.... . cool! you're back...

tell me...how're things?

Well, things are different for me because i made the decision to leave even though it was his cheating and disrespect that lead me to it. I guess it's easier for me because I always have the safety net of knowing that I could go back though i really fucking hope I never get that weak. I still have the diamond on my hand as I read your words and I'm realizing for the first time that I really need to give it back. Damn, its my best friend.... Oh well. I'm really glad you met someone, did you meet on the site or another burlesque?
I am tentatively meeting people & having a silly, stupid crush, but all my braveness is online. I think if I tried to have something real right now I'd freak out, it's too hard to have to pretend to laugh and smile and go out and be normal when nothing is fucking normal at all. blech...so, i hope things are at least tolerable.
i'm going to be in LA next week for my bday, I don't know if we're doing anything cool but you're more than welcome to hang out with us whatever we end up doing.