free2b

I have been feeling stuck lately, but this is changing slowly but surely! I am feeling much better, not depressed, more confident by the day. I have figured that I will pursue an internship at a production company. This way I can learn more marketable skills and develop those I all ready have. Then I'll have some contacts that will hopefully lead me to a job that's not working in a pizza place! Yippie! Well, duh, that's why I went back to school and all, so I could get away from these type of jobs. I was really feeling like I wasn't going to do anything, well, this is how this depression works and I just freeze and think there is nothing good I can do. This is not the case after all. I know I am capable of great things once again, I just need to remember this each and every day. So there. But like I do with each new endeavor, I think about it, and think about it, and think some more, until I actually take action. I've been like this my whole life. So I'm going to try and take little steps, which has worked for me in the past. Sometimes I just loose myself and I don't know where I go. Glad I feel like I have found me again, at least for now I've heard from three people from my past in the past few days, and it's given me such pleasure and a sence of....I just can't let them down(I should come first), but I know that these people at one time in my life had faith in me and believed in me...I know it, I know they did, just as I did! It's a good feeling.