fredvegasgirl

What a loser. I guess my whole getting excited for Friday was for nothing. It was great to see him, don't get me wrong. The whole meeting up was good as always! I looked cute with my dress on and my little strappy sandals, etc... - he freaked when he saw me
But, he said something that has been on my mind and makes me feel like this whole thing is such a mistake and I am a total retard for doing any of it.
He is involved. I am involved. That is bad - I know, spare me the lectures and judgements please. Shit happens and we are human. We are both in situations where we are being ignored in our current relationships and it is such a waste.
Anyway...he says he loves me all the time (whatever ) and he said he was afraid to mess anything up. I told him that was impossible. He replied "in either situation." What the fuck!?!?!?!?!
How is that possible? Can we say have your cake and eat it too?
That is crap. Its obvious to me that either she or I will be getting hurt eventually and it looks like that will end up being me. What a fuckin loser. Why did I think differently? I should have know it was too good to be true. Unless I am reading into it, but I don't see how.