freakqueen

After a rough night, Sean shared that everytime i post about other guys [on bmezine] he feels his chest cave in on him.

And yet, i know that if he can get away with polygamy; he'd do it. I am very monogamous. He knows I'd leave him if he were to do that.
However, we're not even dating.

He's going to spend a thousand dollars to fly from richmond, VA to vancouver, BC. Just so he can spend a week with me. But we hve no title on this relationsihp.

We talked about cheating. How, technically, it wouldn't be cheating if we saw other people because we're not in a steady relationship.

Then he said he loves me. I know he means it. I love him too.

All in all, we're not in a relationship, just in love. He can turn my bad days into good days. Listening to him talk soothes whatever dissonance may be ringing in my head.

We argue. Over everything.
I say, "I'll never intentionally hurt you."
He points out that I'm assuming i won't change as a person.
I am no longer allowed to speak in absolutes.

I will see this out to the bitter end. This is a promise.
i don't want just memories. I want a future.