hooray for copying and pasting.
2005/05/02 22:50
Stayed up til 4:30 a.m.
I was messaging, reading, and trying to stay awake. The book got scary and i didn't feel safe with the sun down.
Got woken up at 6 by my aunt Ev.
"Hey sleepyhead! You want to go out for breakfast?"
She was so genuine that i couldn't refuse.
Storage people are assholes.
Luckily, my aunt is an attorney.
I went straight to work at noon. On 2 hours of sleep. An 8 hour shift.
I didn't get a chance to go home so i was watch-less, pager-less, and wallet-less.
Aunt Ev gave me her watch. So i was operating on EST all day today.
For whatever reason, i came to the conlcusion that changing the hands on her watch would be violating. Sleep deprived, remember?
Ryland and Jonathan.
*sigh*
Ryland went out of his way for me again today. It's appreciated. He's a really, really great guy. But there's a "but". So that's that.
Jonathan. It's as if he memorizes everything i tell him about me. Creepy, to say the least. He asks my friends about me. He finds reasons to touch me. I lost it. I'm not usually rude. I feel bad now.
I keep deducting 3 hours from my watch.
2005/05/02 21:53
psuedo entry?
sweet talkers.
yuck.
I probably wouldn't feel so much hostility towards them if they didn't get to me. If they didn't make me feel special. For that nanosecond that i allow myself to believe their words.
How many times have they spoken those words? To how many women? How many times have they meant it? Of course they meant it every time they've said it. On different levels.
And it's all great when it's fun and games. When you don't hold those words in your heart. But it's hard to dismiss something one wants to believe.
So i'll side with Siddhartha on this one. Just stop wanting. I'll stop attaching myself to my rose tinted beliefs and therefore, not suffer if they fall through.
But i don't want to live my life that way. Nor am I buddhist.
All keith's fault? For the sake argument.
2005/05/02 22:50
Stayed up til 4:30 a.m.
I was messaging, reading, and trying to stay awake. The book got scary and i didn't feel safe with the sun down.
Got woken up at 6 by my aunt Ev.
"Hey sleepyhead! You want to go out for breakfast?"
She was so genuine that i couldn't refuse.
Storage people are assholes.
Luckily, my aunt is an attorney.
I went straight to work at noon. On 2 hours of sleep. An 8 hour shift.
I didn't get a chance to go home so i was watch-less, pager-less, and wallet-less.
Aunt Ev gave me her watch. So i was operating on EST all day today.
For whatever reason, i came to the conlcusion that changing the hands on her watch would be violating. Sleep deprived, remember?
Ryland and Jonathan.
*sigh*
Ryland went out of his way for me again today. It's appreciated. He's a really, really great guy. But there's a "but". So that's that.
Jonathan. It's as if he memorizes everything i tell him about me. Creepy, to say the least. He asks my friends about me. He finds reasons to touch me. I lost it. I'm not usually rude. I feel bad now.
I keep deducting 3 hours from my watch.
2005/05/02 21:53
psuedo entry?
sweet talkers.
yuck.
I probably wouldn't feel so much hostility towards them if they didn't get to me. If they didn't make me feel special. For that nanosecond that i allow myself to believe their words.
How many times have they spoken those words? To how many women? How many times have they meant it? Of course they meant it every time they've said it. On different levels.
And it's all great when it's fun and games. When you don't hold those words in your heart. But it's hard to dismiss something one wants to believe.
So i'll side with Siddhartha on this one. Just stop wanting. I'll stop attaching myself to my rose tinted beliefs and therefore, not suffer if they fall through.
But i don't want to live my life that way. Nor am I buddhist.
All keith's fault? For the sake argument.
honsolo:
always a but. but i thibnk everyone know how it feels to work with no sleep, thats whats shows who the fun people are.... the fun people are always tired
the_mad_monk:
So what were you reading??? sounds like my kind of book. Last book i read that freaked me out, i mean really got to me was "Pet Cemetary" that one really fucked with me!