freakqueen

i've been busy.

girls as far as new york city, japan, belguim and australia have cried on behalf of the breakup between keith and myself.
but good news from new york! I am the feature of the new bellavendetta banner ad. How sweet is this?

i have many a photoshoot coming up. I'm feeling more nervous than anything else.

it's aggravating how with every SG journal entry, i have so much to write. But with my bmezine ones, i update 6 times a day. Often with sentences like,
"I tasted truth today
and it tasted good."

*sigh*
Too many cyberstalkers. My SG journals will most likely have to be either privatized from now on, or kept very, very general. Seeing as how i often use this one as my public journal, i suppose it will have to be the latter.

- my bmezine page is the first thing pops up when i google "anonymosity" -

I am asexual. Did i share that on here yet? I fucking went from BIsexual to Asexual. I am incredulous and disturbed.
I am jack's disbelief.

i have been going out every night. And coming home at 3-4 a.m.
Tonight's my one night off. And maybe tomorrow, because i have a photoshoot scheduled at sunrise on wednesday.

i am not angry but annoyed with the world.
last night I was at sanctuary at sonar.
i told all the boys who asked me for my phone number and panties that i didn't like boys.
and i told all the girls who asked me for passionate kisses and promises of love that i didn't like girls.

I'm supposed to be over at torquil's right now. Cuddling. He's cold, he says. He made out with a 37 year old women. A married, 37 year old women with 3 kids.
...
i told him today that i want a break. He called to tell me that he has an interview with Bell Mobility tomorrow [ he currently works for telus ]. His interview's at 11:30 and he has to work at 1. Of course i'm going to call and find out how his interview went. I am sap. Disgusting sap.
he's so proud.
I'm so lame.
37 is his new record. Does he realize that had she been a year older... she would've been twice his age? Yes, of course he does.
..... it's why he's so proud.

i talked to keith yesterday.. and the day before. he told me that all my old notes to him are now in a metal box. Which he has sealed in electrical tape and rope.
There is so much to say, but with little need to say it all.
- the things that aren't said between me and him stays between me and him. -

People around the world wants to hear a "happily ever after"
keith and i talked. we know where we are. we're happy.

confused. but happy.
it's how it's meant to be.

my friend Crystal Mackowski fell in love with a boy and went to Japan with him 6 days after meeting him. They broke up a week later. She stayed in Japan for 3 months. She bought a one way ticket there. She had $870 in the bank. The ticket had cost her a total of $702.
I am going to africa in 2 years with Keith

Lush is what makes me happiest right now. And my wound-nurse gives me jobs to do in shower. So i now get to spend extra time in there.

I am looking forward to Valentine's day but i won't say why.