Spent some time with Megan. That's always very nice. We may be shooting a menstrual themed photoset in the snow. For Bella Vendetta. Kristen, the creator of BV is very excited about this.
megan's also given me beautiful gifts of lush-y goodness. I will need to go to the lush NA forum and brag.
had a good talk with Keith. *barf* i know i know. but we're friends again. I think. I'll freely open up to him after i stop getting these minor panic attacks.
Yes, i realize that it was I who wanted Keith and I to be close and open with each other. But i think i will always want more than he's willing to give me.
what's up with first loves anyway? They are always the ones you document best. I have endless amounts of pictures of him. And notes that we've shared. I've kept everything!!! And am reluctant to throw it away.
t-money is probably going to use this new girl for sex and tape the experience without her concent/knowledge. I can't work up the effort to care cuz i can't believe how easily girls fall for that manipulative bastard i call my friend.
btw: comment about this pic. I love how seductive/intimate it looks. Like unwrapping an anticipated gift.
of course.. you'd need to be quite comfortable with blood to think along those lines.. but ... needless to say, i am
megan's also given me beautiful gifts of lush-y goodness. I will need to go to the lush NA forum and brag.
had a good talk with Keith. *barf* i know i know. but we're friends again. I think. I'll freely open up to him after i stop getting these minor panic attacks.
Yes, i realize that it was I who wanted Keith and I to be close and open with each other. But i think i will always want more than he's willing to give me.
what's up with first loves anyway? They are always the ones you document best. I have endless amounts of pictures of him. And notes that we've shared. I've kept everything!!! And am reluctant to throw it away.
t-money is probably going to use this new girl for sex and tape the experience without her concent/knowledge. I can't work up the effort to care cuz i can't believe how easily girls fall for that manipulative bastard i call my friend.
btw: comment about this pic. I love how seductive/intimate it looks. Like unwrapping an anticipated gift.
of course.. you'd need to be quite comfortable with blood to think along those lines.. but ... needless to say, i am
Quite simply, you are exquisite. The lighting in this photo brings out so much. Things I love about the image:
- The wisps of hair that caress your neck
- The half-look you are giving over your shoulder that shows you know we are watching, but aren't going to give us the satisfaction of acknowledging us
- Yet again, the way your creamy, pale skin brings out the savage red trickles of blood, and even more how the bright red blood shows off your near-perfect skin
And I love how seeing that image of you makes me want to pull you close, stroke your hair, and whisper, "it's all over," while I gently tend to the marks that mar your beautiful back; but at the same time know that you revel in the delicious pain that bring the marks, and want to take over, and give to you pleasure more intense than you have ever known.
Most pictures are worth a thousand words, but this one is worth a thousand times that.
Thank you.
Not that I can concentrate on anything else at the moment, but my first love was the same way. I kept all of her notes, letters and photos even after I was married, until my now-ex-wife found them one day and took it upon herself to get rid of them. The girl that was my first love and I still talk to each other. And although we have been through a lot of things recently, she will always have a special place in my heart.
I can't wait until BV goes live.
PS: Did you get my e-mail?