i was a fool to think that i could avoid mind games, manipulation and lies just by cleansing myself of them.
It also turns out that i'm not so clean.
i have far too many friends that live their lives by deceit and manipulation of others. And hiding secrets and plotting and telling you what you want to hear... only because they know thats what you want to hear.
if i don't play by their rules. i lose. And i despise losing and losers.
so it's back to reading between the lines and picking up hints when they're dropped. And avoiding the real issues by not speaking of it.
this must explain why i've been hanging out with torquil so often lately. Our relationship is the most honest one I've got going.
[ LMAO!!!!!!!!! i just recalled a recent convo of ours...
"i think you killed my libido"
"i killed your lil beetle ?!?!" ]
<My libido is dead. It worries me. I may delve into more detail.. but you will most likely have to sneakishly peek at my bmezine journal for more info.>
i didn't go to school today. i decided to give myself a snowday. Instead, i slept for 18 hours. i shit you not. I probably could've slept more if i didn't feel so guilty about wasting my day.
my pic of the day has a story behind it. twas my birthday. and we had sex right there, on the beach... underneath a blanket. In front of... maybe.. 10 people? i recall several couples and a guy on a bench directly behind us.
It also turns out that i'm not so clean.
i have far too many friends that live their lives by deceit and manipulation of others. And hiding secrets and plotting and telling you what you want to hear... only because they know thats what you want to hear.
if i don't play by their rules. i lose. And i despise losing and losers.
so it's back to reading between the lines and picking up hints when they're dropped. And avoiding the real issues by not speaking of it.
this must explain why i've been hanging out with torquil so often lately. Our relationship is the most honest one I've got going.
[ LMAO!!!!!!!!! i just recalled a recent convo of ours...
"i think you killed my libido"
"i killed your lil beetle ?!?!" ]
<My libido is dead. It worries me. I may delve into more detail.. but you will most likely have to sneakishly peek at my bmezine journal for more info.>
i didn't go to school today. i decided to give myself a snowday. Instead, i slept for 18 hours. i shit you not. I probably could've slept more if i didn't feel so guilty about wasting my day.
my pic of the day has a story behind it. twas my birthday. and we had sex right there, on the beach... underneath a blanket. In front of... maybe.. 10 people? i recall several couples and a guy on a bench directly behind us.
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People don't know how to be honest. My philosophy in relationships/friendships is this You want to be with me be with me. If you want to be my friend be my friend. It's nice and simple! I hope you BE YOURSELF.