freakqueen

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broke up with cam

keith and i got into an argument today regarding whether or not i called him while he was in Vernon.
...i did NOT call him. I emailed him. Once.
he accused me of lying...
.............hmm, i think i'd remember calling someone i purposely didn't call..............

of course i didn't say that cuz i don't want him to think he's important. I Fucking hate this but i'm laughing my ass off right now. This is such highschool kid shit.


but my new year's resolution was to be honest. To myself. Why didn't i fuck justin the other night? cuz i didn't want to.

I want to say " no more deception and games..." But i know there will be games and there will be lies and cover-ups and stupid deceit.

And im sure megan and jessica both think i should've fucked justin. Simply to end this little game that got started several years earlier. When i called megan at 6 a.m. [cuz i knew she'd be getting ready for school cuz her dad is the VP and is usually there by 8 and has a good 45 min commute] to tell her that i was in tsawwassen. And cuz justin was playing porn music and telling erotic stories and she was the only other person i could think of that would appreciate something like that.

today's not a writing day.. more like a reading day.. I'm going to raid my collection of e.e cummings now.

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