freakpirate

Boat on a hill, never going to sea
Anchored to a fixer upper's dream
This boat is beat, never gonna be a boat now
Thirsty, sees the sea from high on ice plant

He keeps patching it and painting
Thinking about his pension plan
But the boat is out to pasture
Seems it never had a chance

I wanna be a boat
I wanna learn to swim
Then I'll learn to float
Then begin again
Begin again

Boat remembers the carpenter's sure hand
Missing fishy flutter on its rudder
Sold at an auction, on a dolly ever since
Sometimes rainy days drop boyish wonder

He keeps patching it and painting
Thinking about his pension plan
But the boat is out to pasture
Seems it never had a chance

I wanna be a boat
I wanna learn to swim
Then I'll learn to float
Then begin again
Begin again

Jawbreaker - The Boat Dreams From the Hill

This is pretty much how my life feels right now. I'm really glad I have family and friends who love me and worry about me. I have no idea what I'm doing with my life or even how I'm going to make it through the next two weeks... but at least I have some people who will look out for me.

I'm also full of crushing lately and it's a nice feeling.