Friday Jan 27, 2006

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ok guys i dont want to sound like a downer but i have had some really fucked up news today. i found out my dad has cancer and is refusing to get any form of treatment. well as you can guess this really got to me i stormed out of my house and went for a very long drive as to that driving helps calm me down. then i was talking to an ex of mine and she said sorry but thats about it. well low and behold the one person that i can always count on james. i decide to go see if he is home which he is. he helps me by being what he always has is just being a friend and talking and then we go out to eat wich farther helps to get my mind off things but only for a moment. and yet i still dont know what to do or how to feel its like i am just a big ball of emotions wich is strange because i just about always have my emotions in check and i dont know what to do or who to talk to. well i will end this now so if you want to send me a message or coment i love to hear from anyone at this point or if you have my number call me
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awsnow:
I am very sorry to hear what you are going through. My mom is going through testing now for a suspicious tumor. I am a nurse and I have learned it is very important to respect someone's wishes even if they are not your own. Your dad will go through the stages of grief and maybe that is his way of dealing with it. It is hard to see someone refuse treatment when you don't understand. I have seen many people suffer on life support against their wishes. The pain in their eyes is very disturbing. You have to deal with your own emotions, but remember you are not the one with cancer. Cancer doesn't always mean sudden death. Its time for you and your dad to celebrate life. If you dwell on the thoughts of him dying, you'll miss out on the life he is living.
wyatt:
She said what I was going to say, and very nicely. Thanks, Mississippi

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