freakchef

I First want to say Thank You all for your concerns and Love. Ive been sickly but no hair loss. Yet!

Now I digress,

I seem at this time of year get down. Not due to weather or due to the overwleming bills I get from buying Christmas gifts. But from looking on my life and regretting one thing; Victoria Whitelegg.

About 3 years ago I was living in England in a small but beehiveish town called Castle Carry in Sommerset. To sum it up the people in Castle Carry "are" the sterio typical "Proper English" that some of us think of. And thats where I met, at that time (and this time) the girl I (trully) love with everything that is good inside me.

Well we started dating and then I was asked to relocate to a town about 100miles away and I said sure and then the ORG i was working for gave me I plane trip home for christmas for two weeks. during this time she and I wrote multi page letters, Love letters, poems, and art work everyday. I spent about 4 hours aday just writing her and Im sure she did as well.

Untill the day I was about to leave to head back to her. My flite was due to take off at 3:30pm and I was calling the UK to see who was going to pick me up. After about 2 hours calling and not getting any answers I called the head of the ORG and left a messege saying I will be getting into Heathrow at 10:30 and if noone was there he could get a hold of me at my friends house later that day. After doing this I went to have a shower and when I got out there was a messege on my voice mail. "Who do you think you are coming into my country and doing whatever you want" said the head of the ORG. "I have called the airport and revoked your visa. So if you get off the plane you will be sent back home" ****CLICK****

Later I found out why he did that. you see I was working for Castle Carry as the youth worker and I had a cell phone that was provided to me. And just before I left I called alot of ppl to say my goodbyes and I told the Vicor that was my boss I made the phone called so when the bill comes in fax me it and I will pay the outstanding amount. He sent me the fax but also an angry letter saying I was irresponsible I payed the bill the same day I got to fax and faxed back the the recipt to prove I paid it and reminded him I told him all that I have done before I left. Well he unknowen to me contacted the head at the ORG and got me removed cause he said I didnt pay it.

So there I was not going back to the UK too the girl.....No Woman I Loved and Still love to this day.

Victoria moved on from me and the last I heard was living in Manchester with her living boyfriend that doesnt work and in her own words "plays playstaion all day"

The last time I had any contact with her was march 23 2004 and she wrote as follows....

Hi Tim,
Bloody great big knife though huh?
Anyway.
I have just had my computer set up at work for me so here is an email address I'd prefer you to use if possible.

that was in re: telling me she still was single and was waiting for me while she wasnt.

It goes into a new job for her and stuff like that.

To be honest here I worry for her due to I havent heard from her sence that day back in March even tho I send emails and even one of her email addys is no longer active. I just wish I knew she was alive.