franziska

MistressMedusa introduced me to Suicide Girls and I fell in love instantly. Here was a world in which I could be myself and no one would give me The Look. You know The Look. The "Here she goes again," or "She's always so political," (like caring about starving people is a bad thing) or maybe it's, "She's wearing what?"

I have always held back for some reason or another. They always sounded like good reasons. I thought I could gain something by fitting in. Maybe my family would finally like me. Maybe I would get that promotion or better job. Maybe the man in my life wouldn't run off screaming.

I don't want to fit in anymore. I have a job now where I don't have to. Most of my family is dead and my sister is a rabid Republican. My boyfriend will run off screaming, or he won't.

I need to ask myself frequently and with passion, who do I want to be? Who am I really? Suicide Girls is my playground. A place to experiment. A place to feel normal.