franzipan

Long time no post, again.

Quite a lot has happened as of late. I came out to my friends and family and got with a girl.
I was so worried about telling people. I had visions of everyone thinking I was attention seeking, and not believing me. Especially my mum. Or my friends who are girls immediatly thinking I fancy them. But I didnt have much to worry about since nobody was suprised at all. My dad said he wasnt suprised...and actually seemed relieved that I was gay...like I was finally being true to myself or someshit.

It just feels like everything has fallen into place now I have come out. I feel so much happier and being with girls is so right. I can't explain it, but every time I was with a guy, it seemed like something was missing, and not quite right.
I did enjoy sex with guys, but...it's so much better with a girl - the whole dynamics are different and I just feel happy.

I am with a girl called Jo now. She's just brilliant. She is the biggest dick in the world - but I absolutly adore it. She has these really lame army shorts that just make her look like the biggest dyke in the world, but I love them. I really really do.
I like how with her there are no set roles within our relationship...like if I want to buy her flowers, or take her for a meal or be guyish I can. And if I want to wear a dress and be treated like a princess - I can as well!. It's so flexible.

I can't say if I will never be with a guy again. I suppose anything is possible, but the more I am with Jo, the less I feel attracted to guys. At all. I can appreciate they're good looking but..my whole outlook has changed.

But I have never felt happier
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