frantic

Back home for a day time to up so past few days thoughts and events.

Friday 5th august

Went out drinking without sam for the first time ever (due to she was working) And was i expecting her to call me at half past midnight to give me a lecture on staying out? no. Couldnt believe what i was hearing, Weve been together nearly 13 months not 13 years,she was saying how she never goes out (forgeting shes out more than me with her girlfriends) And trying the guilt trip. Now people are gonna say ohhh your in a relationship bla bla women for you bla bla yak yak er no fuck no. Im with sam because i believed she was different. Well all the talk of "trust" and how were young and can go out and not live in each others pockets went out the window........

Saturday 6th august

Still no fucking uniform all the crew have had theres and the other 3 traniee managers had theres and everyones has come bar mine. Wtf who hates me up there? bring it on you tit. Spoke to sam at work as she went work before i got up. Argument now changed not sure why she had a go at me now and said she forgot about her girlie nights and stuff hmmmm love the tempory memory stuff. So im letting it go but now there is a nasty feeling in the back of my mind. Or is that a head ache?

Sunday 7th august

No uniform and no exam date might be 4th september or the 26th. Fuck sake. But hey who cares i dont now.

Monday 8th August

Fuck them
Fuck that
Fuck your god
Fuck your lies
Fuck Fuck Fuck

And what the fuck? Who are these sad bastards that send emails that say send this to 10 people or youll have bad luck. Get a life Im not passing these things on. theres no point.

So hows everyone else?


Update Found new band i like -Within Temptation and i really dig the chorus on this song.

Stand My ground

I can see
when you stay low nothing happens.
Does it feel right?
Late at night
things I thought I put behind me
haunt my mind.

Chorus:
Stand my ground, I won't give in.
No more denying, I've got to face it.
Wont close my eyes and hide the truth inside.
If I dont make it,
someone else will, stand my ground.

I just know theres no escape now
once it sets its eyes on you.
But I won't run, have to stare it in the eye.

Its all around, getting stronger,
coming closer into my world.
I can feel that it's time for me to face it,
can I take it?

Though this might just be the ending
of the life I held so dear.
But I wont run,
theres no turning back from here.

All I know for sure is Im trying.
I will always stand my ground


Only proplem i have is that city that she is singing in looks like the one in evanescences bring me to life. And i dont hasve a problem of that. HIMs new one is cool too. New music i like at last!