So right now have wonderful headache. So please forgive any bad spelling etc.
The reason for the headace is a mixture of training day at work. Followed by spending a while trying to put forward my points with sources and statistics to point out the inaccuracies of a argument by a relative that is at best highly innacurate and poorly worded and really just racist and dumb. So this and other ones similar have left me... Tired.
But. Why bother? Well its something I used to ignor. But with current world and home events and the amount of vitriol that people spurt I felt that it was time to speak out. So I have in what I try to do in a constructive and open debate way. Ive backed up my points and prepared to admit im.wrong or change view if the evidence supports it. But when you see comments like "you cant just make explosives from things in your corner shop" to sheet hypocrisy of saying you want to be safe but ok with police cuts. To then saying "send them back" but not answering when pointed out you are not sure where back is if they are born in the uk. It can get on top of you. But why do it? Because of a saying that I try and stand by.
"All it takes for evil to breed is good men to do nothing"
And in the past year as I had a breakdown and doubted myself I ripped myself apart. I took every part of me and with the self destructive nature giving in to a mental illness does to you I some how hated myself more than I had done in all the time before that. But as time has gone on I have looked at what I actually believe fought myself and the negative thoughts and accepted I am a good person. I care. I love. I feel. I question not just accept the things said in the world and even my over analysing of things that causes my anixety is a strength as it helps me think of more than what is shoved in front of us by papers, politicians etc. Im not perfect. But I want to be better. Understand more and be more tolerant. The barage of racist crap to spring from these horrible events only adds more poison to an ever more hateful world.
So I wont just stay quiet now if I see lies and xenophobic behavior. Because the real wepon in what is going on is education, understanding and not giving in not by just fighting. But keeping your mind free too. Maybe just maybe if more of us did the same it can unify us more than divide.
