So going through some of this and its 1o years since I posted here, So much has changed, I dont think anyone who was on here back then still is. (if you are say hi)
So why come back? Well basically, I want to and this is something I think is good for me. In short in November not long after getting married to Sam (used to be daydreamer on here) I broke. By broke I mean down. After a thousand things and a thousand thoughts the world finally beat me. Sure I had down days we all do. But this was different. I really wasnt the same. Then the real "fun" started. Long story short, I had mental health issues. And those were down to the way I thought about myself and my own continual self destruction. Im currently in the middle of CBT and bit by bit putting myself back together. The thing that has amazed and shocked me is how far back this goes in my life. It isnt just a one day I woke up and "oops time to hide away game over man" It was a final collapse of everything, Going back to childhood shaping how I thought. So in what is Mental Health awareness week coincidentally I would start doing things again, and I thought why not this? SG has grown and no idea where this will lead but I had some good times and maybe will again. Either way at least its somewhere for me to write this stuff and just build. (cause yeah erm facebook and all that... erm yeah another time) will write more later, but at the same time no ones probably going see this anyway, HA!
Well thats a blog I guess, short but got go work... phased return and all that... laters