frantic

Oh fuck, I go nottingham this weekend for sguk meet! trouble is its approached so quick i still think its another month away. Bah time flys when your going insane.

Im in a not too bad mood at the min. I managed to get tickets to Ross Noble. Hes playing two nights here in my little shit hole of a city. Not just anytickets either, Front Row! I went in to buy the things and he said which night i just said as close to the front as possible, He said Front row ok? i said hell yeah! Only trouble is i got wait til october to see him. 27th to be exact. But im on the front row dammit, i so hope he picks on me! Or my mate becky. just pick on one of us dammit!

And october looks like its gonna be a good month! Evanescence's new album is out on the 3rd! I put in my journal a while back that i was waiting for some new stuff and wondered where they'd gone, well it seems they will be back soon. And i dont give a fuck what other people think about them either, flame away i dont care!

Speaking of my music taste, If you dont like what i listen too fine, call it what you want, sad depressive wrist cutting etc. but, when i ask you what youlisten to do not ever say "dance and r nb" What how fucking dare you insult what i listen to! Not to mention as usual you havent looked at the lyrics or the concept. And as far as im concerned theres plenty of more depressing music in the charts right now, coldplay james cunt (sorry blunt. wait i was A HA geddit?) The most depressive drivel ever, Ok so "fix you" or whatever its called by coldplay, youll try and help her will you, then sound a bit upbeat and that you want to fix them, Not like its a chor and make the song drag out for 5 days. And why is it that everyone i tell that i like marilyn manson asks Did he have his ribs removed so he could give himself one? NO he fucking didnt, And anyway have you seen who "gives him one" The Godess Dita Von Teese, And guess what they havent heard of her, Nor understand what burlesque is. The people i work with. God sake.

And on a more personal note, the whole drama of me and

DayDreamer is going ok, not that ive seen much of her because of work but were going to be together at the sguk meet so itll be good for both of us. And im gonna end this entry with a little song, Oh yes. Seriously tho its scary how i listend to it so often and didny realise how much it appliesto me and daydreamer. But hey. there you go.

Within Temptation
See Who I Am

Is it true what they say
are we too blind to find a way
Fear of the unknown clouds our hearts today.
Come into my world
see trough my eyes.
Try to understand
don't want to lose what we have.

We've been dreaming
but who can deny
it's the best way of living
between the truth and the lies.

See who I am
break through the surface.
Reach for my hand
let's show them that we can
free our minds and find a way.
The world is in our hands
this is not the end.

Fear is whithering the soul
at the point of no return.
we must be the change
we wish to see.
I'll come into your world
see trough your eyes.
I'll try to understand
before we lose what we have.

We just can't stop believing
because we have to try.
We can rise above
their truth and their lies.

See who I am
break through the surface.
Reach for my hand
let's show them that we can
free our minds and find a way.
The world is in our hands
this is not the end.

I hear their silence
preaching my blame.
Will our strength remain
if their power reigns

See who I am
break through the surface.
Reach for my hand
let's show them that we can
free our minds and find a way.
The world is in our hands
this is not the end.

And no the drama queens that talk about us arent gonna split us up.