frantic

I just realised something. Its been a year since i joined sg.
From looking at my old entries the 8th to be exact. It got me thinking how much have i changed in the last year. Truth is im not sure, I see my imperfections more than ever. I still have a long list of people that i want to punch for past things. Meaning i am defantly no longer the forgiving type. I really shouldn't be writing an entry right now. My head is all over the place. But im getting worse and worse on here. I hardly ever comment in sguk, hell no one is gonna know who i am at this nottingham meet at this rate. I just finished 10 days in a row at work today. It means i have the weekend off but im totally knackered. Maybe thats why i feel the way i do. Its really hard to explain. I just have no idea what i want from life anymore. Ill see how i feel come sunday night. Nothing ever goes as planned does it?



"go ahead and date a dead messiah, we can dig another grave"



Listen there is something that saved my name

if you aren't hearing this there is nothing I can do

something was grown in my chest

and I've suffered and I've survived

I followed its been dormant for many years

I'm only trying to save you

but I cannot come to save you

but this is what you deserve

this is what we deserve

this is something your Lord got upon the cross

we did not offend none who were not offended

you are not a victim

and you are not an offender

we all have cut off our names

but I know a flaw in my name

these are the dying years

these are the dying years

when you are suffering

know that I have betrayed you.





And we dont wanna live forever
And we know that suffering is so much better....................








................this is for the people, they want you