Have you seen the scariest movie ever? Well I know thats subjective but I don't scare easy. I love the rigor mortis group here on SG and have watched the odd snuff movie and other creepy shit in that group. It's pure fascination with people and bodies I guess. I have kinda accepted that along with good goes "evil" along with beauty goes "god damn ugly". For every yin there's a yang. I have always, since very young loved horror films, thrillers, but never really been scared. Not of visual horrors anyway. The first and last movies to freak me out I guess were Blair Witch and the Ring (the US version). And as you know, there's not much visually to freak you out, in Blair witch, it's pure suggestion and your own projection and identifications.The Ring is a litle freakier, visually, I grant you but again it was more the mental aspects that scared me. And I swore I would never watch video's again, haha, but I did Last week I watched "Paranormal Activity" And I must say, I have also always loved Entities and stuff and this movie was amazing. Really well done. I mean simple as fuck but effective and proof that you don't need big bucks to create suspense. I won't give anything away, it just really is a must see. And actually no, it probably isn't the scariest movie ever but it did have me on the edge of my seat believing (and wanting to believe) shit Oh and how great is it that "V" has been remade? I used to sneaky peak watch the original when I was young, it was after my bedtime but I would sneak around the door of the living room and watch

So what else is new....I really need to start getting on top of things more. And I don't mean my BF especially. It's more that I tend to be running after life instead of creating it and things keep on just going right, but not by any means is it comfortable. Things keep breaking, things that usually are easy to organize seem to be taking forever, new rules seem to be popping up left and right, promises I make and intentions I have are having a hard time following through. I need to start procrastinating less and get on top of things. Arghhhhh, why am I a lazy a leo.

The BF by the way seems to be coming down with swine flu. And as I have been here for the weekend I'm sure I will get it too.. There's a burlesque weekend here next week and my favorite, Lucifire from England is here too. So I really hope I don't get sick. Also, the only "plus" about being sick is having time off work....(if you can call that a plus)...but if you haven't got work...well there's absolutely no reason to get ill what so ever

Anyone have swine flu in your area yet?

Still dreaming of Bali in february... My passport has run out and it costs almost 25% of the ticket there just to get the damned thing renewed!

What are your Christmas plans? I am working Christmas eve in the club and I have bought fluorescent Christmas trees to hang up Christmas day I will go to my mom and brother. Woah, he turned 12 on halloween, he's really starting to be a little man now. Knows exactly what style he wants to wear, asking questions about goths, emo's and metalheads Looks all grunge so my mom showed him some nirvana on youtube, but he didn't like it. Still has some way to go then looks grunge....but likes...... hip hop My mom bought me my present all ready, I saw a lovely nice new pair of UGGs and I wanted them like crazy. Why are those things so darned expensive? They were 389,- reduced to 225,- These aren't normal UGG's they're way sweeter. Promise, 'cause I know how you all hates them! You'll have to wait till christmas to see them, just like me

I've been asked to do some domination vids. just talking to a camera and putting men down. It pays 100,- per 15 minute video. Nothing hardcore, fully clothed and all. A few years ago I would've jumped at the chance, now I'm kinda reluctant. What would you do?

So I'm out to buy some magazines. The club is celebrating it's 21st birthday in the 2nd week of december and I'm making collages for the walls. 21 years of music and mayhem. I need some new metal magazines and shit 'cause I haven't been buying those things for years. All my old magazines from the attic were full of rage against the machine, fear factory and faith no more. That's where my period ended.

Enjoy your week chickens and tell me all about it xoxo