So I'm still on the rollercoaster ride. Up and down, up and down.
I phoned my airliner seems like my flight is still scheduled. I will be expected to travel next wednesday. I will however be diverted to the military airport U-tapao. No one can tell me exactly how I will be able to get to Krabi or Phuket from there to see my boy. Probably I will have to get a 2 hour bus to bangkok and then a 12 to 15 hour bus or train down south. Damn me for giving my lonely planet to him. I need it much more when I arrive to get me through that muddle. Hopefully from the south though I will be able to catch a plane from Phuket or Krabi up north to Laos when he leaves back to Amsterdam.
I am quietly hopeful though now of my journey commencing more or less as planned. I am however completely broke. Which is a bummer.
The Johan situation is spiraling out of control again. He now thinks the whole thing was planned. I waited for the new boy to come along, planned a vacation together etc etc. I understand his pain and the fact that he feels played. But this was not planned. None of it was. I've been through hell the past years with his addiction and it hurts to now have him calling me the bitch-whore-cowardly cunt and everything else he can come up with.
I'm not accustomed to being talked to like that and now I've seen this side to him I really am relieved we've broken up. I deserve better. He literally sms stalked me for about 2 hours yesterday, and was quite threatening too. He's in Londen right now, doing something for Cradle of Filth , I'm sure when he returns tomorrow night it will start up again and he will be coming to remove the monitor and keyboard after all. I just hope that is all he does. I am a little scared. What could someone do in a coked up rage? 
Anyway, that;s it for now. Must sleep. So tired. Stress is getting to me. Everywhere is stress. I'm coping well though, getting through everything systematically. As long as I don't have a nervous breakdown I'm outta here by wednesday and they can all simmer and boil for christmas
I phoned my airliner seems like my flight is still scheduled. I will be expected to travel next wednesday. I will however be diverted to the military airport U-tapao. No one can tell me exactly how I will be able to get to Krabi or Phuket from there to see my boy. Probably I will have to get a 2 hour bus to bangkok and then a 12 to 15 hour bus or train down south. Damn me for giving my lonely planet to him. I need it much more when I arrive to get me through that muddle. Hopefully from the south though I will be able to catch a plane from Phuket or Krabi up north to Laos when he leaves back to Amsterdam.
I am quietly hopeful though now of my journey commencing more or less as planned. I am however completely broke. Which is a bummer.
The Johan situation is spiraling out of control again. He now thinks the whole thing was planned. I waited for the new boy to come along, planned a vacation together etc etc. I understand his pain and the fact that he feels played. But this was not planned. None of it was. I've been through hell the past years with his addiction and it hurts to now have him calling me the bitch-whore-cowardly cunt and everything else he can come up with.
I'm not accustomed to being talked to like that and now I've seen this side to him I really am relieved we've broken up. I deserve better. He literally sms stalked me for about 2 hours yesterday, and was quite threatening too. He's in Londen right now, doing something for Cradle of Filth , I'm sure when he returns tomorrow night it will start up again and he will be coming to remove the monitor and keyboard after all. I just hope that is all he does. I am a little scared. What could someone do in a coked up rage? Anyway, that;s it for now. Must sleep. So tired. Stress is getting to me. Everywhere is stress. I'm coping well though, getting through everything systematically. As long as I don't have a nervous breakdown I'm outta here by wednesday and they can all simmer and boil for christmas
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i knew they would work out
I never did think of this as an alternative trip, but Mexico is great this time of year and you could go see Mr. Ferret!!! Your right though Southeast Asia is awesome!!!
The phone company won't help me!!! We have these things called privacy laws........hell they won't even help the government in tracking terrorist with out immunity in writing!!!!