frankmask

The past often seems more pleasant than the future. The problems of the past have been conquered by time.

My libido is off. I think.

Actually, I'm getting the impression that most of my carefully considered self analysis are wildely off base. Not neccesarily too my detriment, but still not entirely accurate.

So, in the context of my libido, I'm not sure if it's off, or not, or what. I am just a bit confused by it, because it's doing odd, nonespecific things, like not being terribly thrilled with the prospect of sex. Or maybe it's not and I'm just mininterpreting myself again. Who knows?

I really hope that in whatever afterlife exists I can get a detailed 'The Making Of' version of my life. I envision it as something like sitting on a couch with God, the Devil, and a variety of modern philosophers and psychologists, along with a smattering of ancient world eggheads, and just running down everything that happened while I was alive, how it affected me, how I affected my world, etc. etc. etc. At the end there would be a straight statistical expression of my 'Score'. How many times I got sick, my cumulative achievements in school, who I owed money and/or my life too and vice versa, all written out. It would be indexed and searchable by keyword.