franguzi

Excerps from a conversation I had with a friend. Was a good conversation, made me think, so I'll put it down here, saves me retyping all that was said.

fuck man

i hate how i sexualise friendships with girls
like


any time i have a nicechat where i connect with a chick

it always turns into aneed to like get sexual....not gratificationbut like....

acknowledgement?
think its just related tomy pretty shitty self confidence when it comes togirls

basically ifeelanyone who is any good, im not good enough for

thats why before my ex i dated a bunch of tards

and i have a need to be 'accepted'

which in turn makes me not be myself.....

i was at a friends onfriday night

a bunch of us were hanging out

and there was a polaroid camera

and one of my mates took a photo of me n her

and i saw it and luckily i remembered how ifelt when she took it

but i went man,,...i dont LOOK how i feel

i lok uncomfortable like all the time haha

i feel like theres two pieces of a puzzle...like my body is the bit you put the piece into...and whats inside is what you put in that place...but whats inside isnt meeting all the dges

i feel like my body and my 'personality' or whatever that may be

dont allign properly

i think its related to my stressing tho

i think my brain is reaching for conclusions and fears without me evenrealising it

ok thats it



comments welcome