fragile21

I'm just sitting around listening to music and working on some lyrics. I would go to sleep, but I think I'm too tired to sleep.

I just found out that my screen name for AIM is somehow on some singles website. I was wondering why I kept getting all these guys want to cyber fuck. This last guy told me where he got my name. Some site called www.americansingles.com. I don't know how it got on that site. It makes me want to change my name, but damn I've had this one forever. I feel sorry for all the girls who have to deal with this kind of shit all the time.

So on Monday I should be drunk about this time of night. It's been awhile. Who wants to drink with me?

By the way! Here is another poem!

"of a broken heart"
my heart bleeds as it's wrapped in a noose
the tighter the hold the more it hurts
and i can't breathe when it won't beat
all that rests inside my chest turns to a bruise
and i don't know how to live without you
this fragile place that's entangled a curse
has broken me to fall to my knees

love
is all that really ever burns
pain
is nothing more than a word

and all i gave to you is gone
and all that we were is lost
and all that is left is memory

this space that bled in me is now a grave
where the dirt will not set free to fly
all of the things that are haunting me
and i wish i could fall asleep and be saved
and erase your promises to keep me safe
with all these pieces i've been left to die
and swing in the wind of your emptiness

love
is nothing more than a word
pain
is all that really ever burns

and all i gave to you is lost
and all that we were is gone
and all i have left is memory

...and forever