"vacant"
a heart once open
turns to frost
ice is easily broken
but not without loss
and all i am has become
so numb
i wish i could feel something more
but nothing means anything to me
and i would give my life just to feel sore
when everything is empty

and i'm sorry
i keep thinking of ways to die alone
but there is no place where i feel at home

if i could feel then i would love you
if i could love then we'd be forever
if forever existed then i'd be dead

spirit so vacant
disappears
until i'm left transparent
into winter clears
all that was covered in snow
hollow
i used to climb to reach the stars
but i was just clawing for black holes
to swallow me and erase all the scars
that are frozen to my soul

and i'm sorry
i keep thinking of ways to die alone
but i have no place where i feel at home

if i could feel then i would love you
if i could love then we'd be forever
if forever existed then i'd be dead

and all i could ever feel was this cold