fragglerocker

seems like just yesterday
you were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
your arms around me tight
everything felt so right
unbreakable, like nothing could go wrong

no I can't breathe, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
opened up and let you in
you made me feel alright
for once in my life
now all that's left of me
is what I pretend to be
sewed together but so broken up inside

no I can't breathe, no I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

swallow me then spit me out
for hated you I blame myself
seeing you, it kills me now
though I dont cry on the outside anymore
anymore

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes

Here I am
once again
i'm torn into pieces
can't deny it, can't pretend
just thought you were the one
broken up, deep inside
but you wont get to see the tears I cry
behind these hazel eyes


Leave it to drunk friends to bring up shit you dont like to talk about. No I dont put on a front. I have my "moments" when im alone. I like it like that. Forgive me for not wanting to talk about it. Its over i cant do anything to change it or make it better ,it happened. Forgive me for not wanting to be sad all the time. I dont want you to feel sorry for me but i know you do. You do because you wish you could take it away. Fuck that everything happens for a reason and its up to me to grow and learn from it. I choose not to think about it or him or any of it. I choose not to talk about any of it. Let me be. Stop telling me I need help and that im being "too strong." As much at I hate him I miss him at the same time. He was a big part of my life and now its just gone. We didnt drift apart or anything he was just gone. I hate thinking about it. Im dont want to waste any more of my tears on him. He got too many already.