I got called out by the HR director at work for visiting SG from the break room (hey, I was only reading journals -- I am not so dense as to actually bring up porno at work) and was told not to do it again... this is why I have been mostly absent from here -- because I work ALL THE TIME.

Anyway, here is my latest journal entry, compliments of MySpace:

17:47 - I'm no musician but the pain has been instrumental


At work today, and finally awake. I re-started Remeron last night (actually according to the doctor, they are having trouble getting Remeron soltabs, so I was given the generic... in the past the generic pill has only seemed to make ne more anxious, but this time I have generic soltabs), and on top of that I had only 2 hours of sleep the night before, so last night I was in bed around 8:30 PM, and got out of bed at 7:30 this morning... did not actually wake up until I ate at lunch.

Why am I on drugs again? Because my life stopped moving... again. And already today, it feels like it is in motion again. Only time will tell for sure, but it may have started, also, because I was on lexapro for the past three weeks.

So, in store for tonight: continue to clean/pack my room at the Sambergs' (moving back to Dickson this upcoming week); watch The Machinist -- started it yesterday, but only saw about 2 minutes before I fell asleep; do a lot of sit-ups... my mental studies in Buddhism may have stalled temporarily, but apparently my body is becoming more and more Buddhish by the day...

::sigh:: time now, though, to finish up work...


Currently listening:
Amethyst Rock Star
By Saul Williams
Release date: By 23 October, 2001