I realized something horrible this afternoon: I currently don't love anybody. I knew I don't love the girl I'm dating (I've only known her just under three months, after all), and I also realize that I don't love the girl who left me for London. But also, despite the fact that I haven't seen them in four months, the trip I am about to make to visit my mother and sister feels like an obligation, rather than something I want to do.
With a sick, sad feeling inside, I realized I would be happier without them in my life. They are both kind and compassionate people, intelligent and always glad to see or hear from me. So where am I coming from? I don't get this at all.
With a sick, sad feeling inside, I realized I would be happier without them in my life. They are both kind and compassionate people, intelligent and always glad to see or hear from me. So where am I coming from? I don't get this at all.
pastura:
i know that feeling. sometimes i think it would be simpler without family - i've always been closer to friends anyway. i would have made a good hermit, but alas, i think i have always at least had one friend in my life it would have killed me to leave. i'm sorry for your situation - i hope things come back to life for you. wait till you see them, maybe you'll warm up.