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Saturday Sep 04, 2004

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And once again the silence speaks
But for a first I might listen to what it has to say
It whispers to me through the dark,
through the palm leaves and the salty night
And for once it says you're ok
And for once it says more joy

Contrary to popular belief, contrary to the notes and the words, contrary to the liquids that give me a headache when I awake, contrary to the obsenities I leave on my sheets, to the sour taste it all leaves in my mouth, to the things I pull out from the inside...

Sometimes I wake up with a smile, and sometimes I sit straight up in bed knocked out of lucidity with a start and I can't tell the difference, sometimes I know that there's a grasp on our souls and usually I don't know anything. I still wake up every day though, and I know when it's sunny it will be hot out and when it's overcast I know it will burn off by noon. I know the ground will shake soon, I feel it under my feet, and I know that something will come along one day, but I still don't know shit.

Looking through blue glass while red wine stains my throat, I've got two feet to stand on and two eyes to see through, one heart to beat and one soul to be sung to - more joy.

There's a typed mess of letters that will go up in smoke in less than a day, I asked for catharsis and finally realize I don't need to be in the desert, I know I'll finally feel it away from the tribe but I know I'm right there. Maybe my thoughts will change tomorrow and feel my heart shattered, but right now it's all just right where it's supossed to be.

Gemini distractions, you set me off my path, something shiny off in the distance and we run like Icarus touching the sun, just a little higher never wanting to reach a plateau. There are no valleys, there's are no plains, no peaks and no uphill falls.

Maybe my eyes are just opened to be reminded that I'm blind, but maybe this time I can see.

I want to dance, and I don't mind doing it alone.
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howard1985:
Out of all the journals i look at that are long, yours is the almost the only one i read and wouldnt mide reading again. I think you should just keep it up and put all of them in a book, Im sure that people would buy it, or it would just be a good coffee table book. Later and peace. smile
Sep 4, 2004
_mre_:
I generally find it hard to focus on transcribed thoughts, as I tend to be a very visual individual. Yet, when I see your entries, I find that I develop a sort of tunnel vision which redirects all of my other senses to that which you have written.

On that note, I feel that a publication of your works might not be the best idea. This should only prove to spread the addiction, with which your heroin of words has so infected those of us in the evergrowing SG community, to epidemic proportions! I am always left wanting more.
Sep 4, 2004

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