fr3ak

Home sick today. I want to die. Or go

Other then that i wrote a small bit of just whats been going on in my brain lately.

Is it better to love and lose it?
Or to never love again?
This is the question Im asking myself now.
Ive been 100% head over heels in love.
The kind of love you can feel in your whole body.
And Ive had my heart tore out and thrown away.
Ive been lied to and cheated on.
Ive built quite a wall around my heart.

So how do you know what to take it down?
How will I know if she is the right one?
Ive hurt a lot of people because of this.
I cant open up like I once used to.

I guess Ill never know if I dont try again.
I just hope they her whoever can understand.
Why I cant give them all they deserve right away.


Back to laying on the couch and trying not to die.

I want this.. If anyone wants to get it for me.