I kissed a boy today.
Fuck you Jerry Falwell, I feel great. Am I supposed to be miserable? Or do I pay my dues in hell, because being gay is so fun and decadent on earth?
I hate religion. Why am I majoring in it? Maybe because I love it too. And plus, being a music major makes music a chore, and I love music too much to let it be a chore. Religion was always work for me. Music should be fun. And being a creative writing major doesn't appeal for some weird reason, and I'm not completely sure why. I consider my writing work, but I have a deep love for it, even when I get bogged down with it, unlike music, where after I've played the Bb major scale a hundred times and I'm still just a little off, I start not even listening to music.
I don't know why I don't want to be a creative writing major. But I don't. Maybe I will come up with a reason in the future. That's the reverse of how most people do it I guess, but eh - what do I care?
Anyway, my date went really well. He's a really sweet guy, and while I could list you the pros and the cons, I'm happy enough to try a second date.
The only question is if I should put out on the second date.
To be completely honest, every time I have had sex with a guy I was extremely high, and I've never been on a date with a guy, or kissed a guy completely sober, until today. Even though Alex is 19, he is far more experienced with this stuff than me. I could tell he wanted to go today, but his dorm room is nasty. I don't exactly want to have sex with a guy I like in a complete shithole. Plus, I want to move at least a little slow.
The next question is: If I do decide to put out, how in the hell am I going to find a decent room to get laid in? My house is almost an hour and a half away. I'm tempted to tell him we have to go there to do it. I am not. getting fucked. in a room full of dirty undies. Period.
Weird for Mr. Slob to be so finnicky about this one point, but there it is. I mean, no sheets on the bed, the mattress pad not fixed to the corners of the bed but just laying on top, the top bunk filled with clothes and junk, the room full of dirty clothes. How romantic is that? I would feel like a cheap male prostitute or something. Sure just throw the spankerchief in the corner, thanks.
By the way, I love Mary and I love her new set. I haven't thought of a good comment yet. One thing is that I really like how she looks in profile or at an angle. She has this very slim shoulder, and her body isn't very deep, but these really heavy breasts. It's very sexy. I've considered making her a favorite. I just may.
Or not. I'll give it a couple of days. Oh and I'm deleting all my favorite pics. I may go through and add 10 or 20 that I really like, but I'm not going to do a complete overhaul. There are alot of pics in my favorites right now that aren't my favorite pics anymore, or that I clicked on while scrolling through a set. So they are all going to go and then I'll add a few.
I wonder if Al has her webcam on. I saw her on one night and neglected to take a peek. Dumb me.
Oh and the new SG Antony has one of the most artistic sets I've seen yet. She reveals alot, but in a way that is pretty intelligent and also fairly original, from what I've seen here.
Great day folks. I'm happy. Tired, but feeling positive. Even if Alex and I don't become lifelong mates, he is sweet enough that I think I will enjoy having sex with him. And I will probably force him to come to my house to do it. Not only is it much less like a brothel, but there are no college students running up and down the halls. And furthur, I'm very comfortable at my house. Its my place.
I suppose a frank discussion about this may be in order. That will be tough. Probably a trip to buy condoms as well. I don't know if we'll be needing them right out of the gate, but it wouldn't hurt to have them around.
I'm so terribly out of the loop with this dating thing. I have no idea what Alex is thinking at this point. Is he just attracted to me physically? Does he find my cerebral pursuits a fucking bore? Is he looking for a fuck buddy? (I kind of am.) Or is he thinking about getting serious? (That will only happen in the distant future.)
I feel like a hormonal woman. Sorry to be so chauvinist. But to all you ladies, I think I have a general idea about how you feel about dating. Other than the pregnancy thing.
Alright, somebody stop me, this has gone on too long.
Tim.
Fuck you Jerry Falwell, I feel great. Am I supposed to be miserable? Or do I pay my dues in hell, because being gay is so fun and decadent on earth?
I hate religion. Why am I majoring in it? Maybe because I love it too. And plus, being a music major makes music a chore, and I love music too much to let it be a chore. Religion was always work for me. Music should be fun. And being a creative writing major doesn't appeal for some weird reason, and I'm not completely sure why. I consider my writing work, but I have a deep love for it, even when I get bogged down with it, unlike music, where after I've played the Bb major scale a hundred times and I'm still just a little off, I start not even listening to music.
I don't know why I don't want to be a creative writing major. But I don't. Maybe I will come up with a reason in the future. That's the reverse of how most people do it I guess, but eh - what do I care?
Anyway, my date went really well. He's a really sweet guy, and while I could list you the pros and the cons, I'm happy enough to try a second date.
The only question is if I should put out on the second date.
To be completely honest, every time I have had sex with a guy I was extremely high, and I've never been on a date with a guy, or kissed a guy completely sober, until today. Even though Alex is 19, he is far more experienced with this stuff than me. I could tell he wanted to go today, but his dorm room is nasty. I don't exactly want to have sex with a guy I like in a complete shithole. Plus, I want to move at least a little slow.
The next question is: If I do decide to put out, how in the hell am I going to find a decent room to get laid in? My house is almost an hour and a half away. I'm tempted to tell him we have to go there to do it. I am not. getting fucked. in a room full of dirty undies. Period.
Weird for Mr. Slob to be so finnicky about this one point, but there it is. I mean, no sheets on the bed, the mattress pad not fixed to the corners of the bed but just laying on top, the top bunk filled with clothes and junk, the room full of dirty clothes. How romantic is that? I would feel like a cheap male prostitute or something. Sure just throw the spankerchief in the corner, thanks.
By the way, I love Mary and I love her new set. I haven't thought of a good comment yet. One thing is that I really like how she looks in profile or at an angle. She has this very slim shoulder, and her body isn't very deep, but these really heavy breasts. It's very sexy. I've considered making her a favorite. I just may.
Or not. I'll give it a couple of days. Oh and I'm deleting all my favorite pics. I may go through and add 10 or 20 that I really like, but I'm not going to do a complete overhaul. There are alot of pics in my favorites right now that aren't my favorite pics anymore, or that I clicked on while scrolling through a set. So they are all going to go and then I'll add a few.
I wonder if Al has her webcam on. I saw her on one night and neglected to take a peek. Dumb me.
Oh and the new SG Antony has one of the most artistic sets I've seen yet. She reveals alot, but in a way that is pretty intelligent and also fairly original, from what I've seen here.
Great day folks. I'm happy. Tired, but feeling positive. Even if Alex and I don't become lifelong mates, he is sweet enough that I think I will enjoy having sex with him. And I will probably force him to come to my house to do it. Not only is it much less like a brothel, but there are no college students running up and down the halls. And furthur, I'm very comfortable at my house. Its my place.
I suppose a frank discussion about this may be in order. That will be tough. Probably a trip to buy condoms as well. I don't know if we'll be needing them right out of the gate, but it wouldn't hurt to have them around.
I'm so terribly out of the loop with this dating thing. I have no idea what Alex is thinking at this point. Is he just attracted to me physically? Does he find my cerebral pursuits a fucking bore? Is he looking for a fuck buddy? (I kind of am.) Or is he thinking about getting serious? (That will only happen in the distant future.)
I feel like a hormonal woman. Sorry to be so chauvinist. But to all you ladies, I think I have a general idea about how you feel about dating. Other than the pregnancy thing.
Alright, somebody stop me, this has gone on too long.
Tim.