as i get random flashes of things i did last night thru this funky fog of ka-ka feeling, all i can say is "oh my god....."
i feel like yuck from hell.......
woke up at 6pm. i guess thats kinda good because i finally got more than 5hrs sleep at one time, but still.....
i dont think i'm up for this computer thing right now....
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i feel like yuck from hell.......
woke up at 6pm. i guess thats kinda good because i finally got more than 5hrs sleep at one time, but still.....
i dont think i'm up for this computer thing right now....
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good googley moogley!
so much shit to do today! i would much rather sit on my ass and do whatever came to mind, but i got these things here sombody once called something like "obligations" or some craziness like that....
geez that sounds lazy from hell, but really it's about enjoying comfort.
no really.
so i called my bug who just had her baby. i've...
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so much shit to do today! i would much rather sit on my ass and do whatever came to mind, but i got these things here sombody once called something like "obligations" or some craziness like that....
geez that sounds lazy from hell, but really it's about enjoying comfort.
no really.
so i called my bug who just had her baby. i've...
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foxfyre819:
ugh!!!! 
dammit all to hell!!!!!!!
so i called him back today, but no answer---left message.
repeat once more---message: "well, specifically, i was calling to see if you were still coming to town this weekend....."
so he calls me back a few minutes ago. tries to throw a guilt trip at me, one of the many faces of his humor, sayin' that since he didn't hear from me this week, he thought i didn't want to see him, and so he thought he'd come down next weekend.
i told him, "well, that's cool, but you know, i'm gonna be in jail next weekend. my courtdate's tues., and it's completely up to the judge how much time i serve. so i could be in there the whole week end. i don't know."
at first he thought i was kidding, but i'm totally fereal.
apparently, he's at work, and he got really busy. told me he'd call me back.
oh! but before all that, he was like, "dammit! i wanted to see you."
then i says, "it doesn't really matter all that much does it? i mean, you weren't coming down to see me, you were coming down to get some stuff. right?"
.........................silence........................
"what else you got?" i say
after that he was acting all flustered like trying to figure something out. i asked him whats the matter, and he says, "i'm trying to figure out how i can come see you. i wanna see you."
right. so that's where i am.
but gaddammit! i'm still going out tonite! even though there's no chance i'll get myself laid anymore. probably a good thing anyway. think i'm ovulating. heh.
where's my good, trusty pal fancypants when i need him?
dammit all to hell!!!!!!!
so i called him back today, but no answer---left message.
repeat once more---message: "well, specifically, i was calling to see if you were still coming to town this weekend....."
so he calls me back a few minutes ago. tries to throw a guilt trip at me, one of the many faces of his humor, sayin' that since he didn't hear from me this week, he thought i didn't want to see him, and so he thought he'd come down next weekend.
i told him, "well, that's cool, but you know, i'm gonna be in jail next weekend. my courtdate's tues., and it's completely up to the judge how much time i serve. so i could be in there the whole week end. i don't know."
at first he thought i was kidding, but i'm totally fereal.
apparently, he's at work, and he got really busy. told me he'd call me back.
oh! but before all that, he was like, "dammit! i wanted to see you."
then i says, "it doesn't really matter all that much does it? i mean, you weren't coming down to see me, you were coming down to get some stuff. right?"
.........................silence........................
"what else you got?" i say
after that he was acting all flustered like trying to figure something out. i asked him whats the matter, and he says, "i'm trying to figure out how i can come see you. i wanna see you."
right. so that's where i am.
but gaddammit! i'm still going out tonite! even though there's no chance i'll get myself laid anymore. probably a good thing anyway. think i'm ovulating. heh.
where's my good, trusty pal fancypants when i need him?
fancybear:
ah, shit Foxy... I was in traffic on the way home. I am grabbing a shower and heading to capoeira (Ahhhh, capoeira...) 
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I thought you were out and about gettin busy. Sorry to hear your boy isn't coming up (he may yet, heh?).
I was/am wishing you well too. Maybe I need to tune my antennae...
dialing into "pretty, perfect and pink",
connection established...
Sending "irresistable"
Sending "bliss magnet"
I hope my upload worked. Have a great time tonight. Don't kill anyone.
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I thought you were out and about gettin busy. Sorry to hear your boy isn't coming up (he may yet, heh?).
I was/am wishing you well too. Maybe I need to tune my antennae...
dialing into "pretty, perfect and pink",
connection established...
Sending "irresistable"
Sending "bliss magnet"
I hope my upload worked. Have a great time tonight. Don't kill anyone.
so, guess who called me today. left me a message on my phone.
said, "hey m. this is kris s. remember me? just wanted to see if yer still alive or something. give me a call."
i figured me a plan, see. he called me on sunday, but i didn't answer, so he lef me a message. but i didn't care for his tone. (although...
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said, "hey m. this is kris s. remember me? just wanted to see if yer still alive or something. give me a call."
i figured me a plan, see. he called me on sunday, but i didn't answer, so he lef me a message. but i didn't care for his tone. (although...
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fancybear:
Clean house... shit, thanks for reminding me. Girls are the same way I think... They seem to like having TP in the bathroom and sheets on the bed... they are funny like that
Sorry to hear about kelli... wow, getting into a bender with a cop while drinking... that is going to suck in court.
Right on about kris... good luck with your new plan.
I am going to get food with the brazillians... we will see what happens...
Sorry to hear about kelli... wow, getting into a bender with a cop while drinking... that is going to suck in court.
Right on about kris... good luck with your new plan.
I am going to get food with the brazillians... we will see what happens...
so i got this call at 9 am today. it was my best friend since high school, my bug. she says to me, "it should be within the next hour, so get your ass down here."
so i didn't even shower, tho i did brush my teeth, and rushed down to the hospital...........to wait and wait and wait.........and then wait some more. couldn't eat because...
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so i didn't even shower, tho i did brush my teeth, and rushed down to the hospital...........to wait and wait and wait.........and then wait some more. couldn't eat because...
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fancybear:
congratulations to you and the mother! Isa is blessed to have you about. I pitty any little shit who tries to fuck with her
They'll end up in the garden
Aren't babies rad? My goddaughter just turned 7 mos...
They'll end up in the garden
Aren't babies rad? My goddaughter just turned 7 mos...
achterbahn:
And the cool thing is: The little girl will love you in return. Nothing she can do about it.
Oh, and for me being from the orld world. Dui is drunk driving, right? And you go to jail for that? Tough. I see your point now. I thought you robbed a bank or something like that.
Michael
Oh, and for me being from the orld world. Dui is drunk driving, right? And you go to jail for that? Tough. I see your point now. I thought you robbed a bank or something like that.
Michael
my nose was broken when i was little. so now i got crazy crookedness goin on. never really liked my nose.
i'm so emotional right now. fuckin A!
ah, the bullshit you have to deal with when yer a girl.
so, i think i may have changed my mind about this whole kristopher thing.
maybe.
i think that the problem isn't necessarily all him. (this...
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i'm so emotional right now. fuckin A!
ah, the bullshit you have to deal with when yer a girl.
so, i think i may have changed my mind about this whole kristopher thing.
maybe.
i think that the problem isn't necessarily all him. (this...
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fancybear:
Hey girl... My Internet was off the air all night. BUMMER.
I got to see Greyskull, Akrobatics and Aesop Rock... Aesop was super fun. I am blown out tired tho.
I hadn't noticed your nose being all crooked (I don't see it, actually). But, I am into the traumas of life... wouldn't bother me anyway...
Rage is pretty fun but I can't live there - I need to recharge after a few days. Be boring, do chores, pay fucking bills...
peace.
I got to see Greyskull, Akrobatics and Aesop Rock... Aesop was super fun. I am blown out tired tho.
I hadn't noticed your nose being all crooked (I don't see it, actually). But, I am into the traumas of life... wouldn't bother me anyway...
Rage is pretty fun but I can't live there - I need to recharge after a few days. Be boring, do chores, pay fucking bills...
peace.
achterbahn:
You were arrested? Cool. Why?
right! this would be me. me and my fair skinned, blush needin' ass.
but in my defense, this was taken just after i got home the other nite. so......
this picture brought to you by the letters M and C, and by our sponsor, and my west coast twin, chris taylor
so kristopher called me tonite. didn't answer the phone. little upset about his treating...
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but in my defense, this was taken just after i got home the other nite. so......
this picture brought to you by the letters M and C, and by our sponsor, and my west coast twin, chris taylor
so kristopher called me tonite. didn't answer the phone. little upset about his treating...
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fancybear:
You have pretty eyes tough guy.
I'm outta here to find some-kind-a trouble... Almost anything will do today.
I'm outta here to find some-kind-a trouble... Almost anything will do today.
thefuckoffkid:
Lime Helmet Kitty thanks you. He appreciates fans.
ugh! reeling from the late night of drinking and flirting my ass off.
i did get a chick in my bed! but she's only a friend, so no hanky panky.
heh.
i went to the fire house with wendy, quintin, and eric. had a pretty good time there, but i saw john, the ex. luckily though, he didn't see me.
see, we had been dating...
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i did get a chick in my bed! but she's only a friend, so no hanky panky.
heh.
i went to the fire house with wendy, quintin, and eric. had a pretty good time there, but i saw john, the ex. luckily though, he didn't see me.
see, we had been dating...
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fancybear:
hey baby... I feel great today.
Picked up a copy of the latest Outkast. Good stuff... I'm going to kick back and spend some quality time with it this afternoon. (puff, puff... ahaa)
Also got some Non-Prophets...
I don't dislike nice girls... We often get along ok, have great conversation, though the topics run on the tame side.
I love bad/badass girls who can throw on a good scowl, hit with their fists, drink boubon, swear, shit-eaten grins, dance late... sigh
The cool thing about this online thing I did was I made it clear to myself. No need to go back.
Picked up a copy of the latest Outkast. Good stuff... I'm going to kick back and spend some quality time with it this afternoon. (puff, puff... ahaa)
Also got some Non-Prophets...
I don't dislike nice girls... We often get along ok, have great conversation, though the topics run on the tame side.
I love bad/badass girls who can throw on a good scowl, hit with their fists, drink boubon, swear, shit-eaten grins, dance late... sigh
The cool thing about this online thing I did was I made it clear to myself. No need to go back.
fancybear:
U put up a pic!
Nice to see ya... Cutie...
Nice to see ya... Cutie...
this love i'm in
each time a different truth revealed
the shining poetry of a star concealed
but i see
myself
and each time i withdraw a swollen heart,
a starstruck mind, and spellbound art
with gleaming eyes full of hope
and far-fetched dillusions
of this perpetual future memory confusion
just so certain of this love i'm in
but to deny the fragility within
would...
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each time a different truth revealed
the shining poetry of a star concealed
but i see
myself
and each time i withdraw a swollen heart,
a starstruck mind, and spellbound art
with gleaming eyes full of hope
and far-fetched dillusions
of this perpetual future memory confusion
just so certain of this love i'm in
but to deny the fragility within
would...
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fancybear:
I was in a silly mood earlier.. friend Foxy I also wanted to state the goal publicly so as to obligate myself to follow through. 
... So you see... I really want this camera
I like your poem and didn't have time to give it any real attention. It relays some inner conflict, a conflict I can identify with. The reason I think you are crazy and cool is that you are tackling truth and love in the same poem. I can write and have written love poems but never tried truth. It might be because truth is as subjective as reality to me. To me they are the same thing, reality and truth.
Creepy lawer... yikes...
Have a great time out! I am heading back in...
I also wanted to state the goal publicly so as to obligate myself to follow through. ... So you see... I really want this camera
I like your poem and didn't have time to give it any real attention. It relays some inner conflict, a conflict I can identify with. The reason I think you are crazy and cool is that you are tackling truth and love in the same poem. I can write and have written love poems but never tried truth. It might be because truth is as subjective as reality to me. To me they are the same thing, reality and truth.
Creepy lawer... yikes...
Have a great time out! I am heading back in...
cunninglinquist:
You said it was a friend and I said fine.
he doesn't believe me. part of me doesn't blame him. that was an awful lot for someone to say. huge responsibility comes with that. however, the other part of me wonders how he could possibly deny the truth. i see it in his eyes. i know he sees it in mine.
in the past few months, i've seen a totally different side of myself. i...
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fancybear:
Amen Foxy I love the part who am i to think I got things figured out. Pair that with you holding the conviction - individuals have a responsibility to not only improve, but to evolve, and I have to ask may I call you sister foxy?
fancybear:
If I can call you anything I like... 
I think I'll start with "friend."
other name calling can come l8r...
I think I'll start with "friend."
other name calling can come l8r...
i can't sleep again. he's driving me fuckin nuts.
no wait.
that's me driving me nuts. just can't stop thinking about him. analyzing every little detail. cause he gives me nothing else to go on.
ass.....
no wait.
that's me driving me nuts. just can't stop thinking about him. analyzing every little detail. cause he gives me nothing else to go on.
ass.....
shera:
you are march 24th too???? my best friend and i both have the same birthday too...weird...
fancybear:
I read that the CEO of Virgin, when asked what was his favorite drug, answered - Excedrin PM.
I first started using it when I was working in video games...
It puts me down in about 30 minutes.
Also, it's none of my business and every relationship is unique, but my tact is to hold on lightly and try to lead an enviable life. Also, I think guys generally suck, that we don't know it is what sucks about being a guy.
I first started using it when I was working in video games...
It puts me down in about 30 minutes.
Also, it's none of my business and every relationship is unique, but my tact is to hold on lightly and try to lead an enviable life. Also, I think guys generally suck, that we don't know it is what sucks about being a guy.
well, i called him today, but just to wish him happy birthday. 
right.
he knows better. he knows me better than that. i always have something up my sleeve. it's just part of my innate nature.
i'm really diggin that word.
innate.
beautiful word. so primal. so uncomplicated by thoughts and the like.
anyways, he sounded surprised to hear from me. i guess he would...
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right.
he knows better. he knows me better than that. i always have something up my sleeve. it's just part of my innate nature.
i'm really diggin that word.
innate.
beautiful word. so primal. so uncomplicated by thoughts and the like.
anyways, he sounded surprised to hear from me. i guess he would...
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fancybear:
You should see the rest of my chart 
I like you... you have drive.
As for tomorrow... my wish still stands.
Don't let the bastards get you down.
I like you... you have drive.
As for tomorrow... my wish still stands.
Don't let the bastards get you down.
today's his birthday, and so i called him. but why the hell didn't he call me at all this weekend?! i think i scare him. or at least he's intimidated by the intensity of the feelings i have. but i gave him fair warning! i told him that i don't feel anything half-assed.
yeah, i know. this probably isn't really about me. it's about him....
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yeah, i know. this probably isn't really about me. it's about him....
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I went and saw some awesome live music last night. Your meditations were so effective I had to chase the girls away. I did have a wonderfull time dancing. I didn't get up until, like, 12...
Heading back out tonight... but I have to make it an early one... there is an all day roda (capoeira gathering) tomorrow and I am beat already.
xo!