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Columbus, Ohio

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Friday Aug 06, 2004

Aug 6, 2004
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I've been getting stuck in my nightmares recently... I can usually get out of them by sheer force of will. But these last couple nights I end up stuck, and end up sleeping for 12 or more hours. When you have dreams like mine, that's a hell of a lot of pain.

I got a call from my former employers. They want me back on the staff, at least temporarily. Despite my misgivings, I need income. Bad. In about two weeks' time, I'll be out of food. So this could not have come at a better (or worse) time.

Yet, despite everything, that dream I have still comes. In fact, it comes several times a night. For those reading this who don't know, my whole family is psychically gifted... most of my family has episodes of deja vu, but most of my family is Christian, and regards it as either 'the temptation of the Enemy' or 'visions from God'... both of which I'd snort at normally, but explaining the same thing by both descriptions is sheer cosmic comedy. Since I was young, I've known the day of my death. It's later this month.

But one thing I've been able to do, is as I see these things, I can affect their change. I'm not planning to walk meekly to my slaughter. I've already put things into motion to protect myself.

If I pass through August alive, it'll be a whole new future for me... something beyond my dreams.

25 days to zero hour.
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pixietits:
...good luck with the whole "death" thing. smile biggrin smile biggrin
Aug 7, 2004
tarnish:
I used to LOVE half-life, I was in year book my senior year of high school, and all of the computers in our class(there were 7) were on a LAN, and most of the year there wasn't anything to do, so we all played half life for an hour. It was rad.
I've just recently gotten good at HALO, I used to be teh sucks, but now I p00n my hubby all the time. He thinks I play cheesy, but he's just pissed that I rule with the hand gun, hehehe.

I got really freakin' good at soul calibur 2. So good, that my husband traded it in. lol. He claims thats not the reason, but I like to think it was. biggrin
Aug 7, 2004

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