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Well maybe I should not write here while in a depressed mood but that is where I am at today.

Last week was a very hard time for me and I have been burned out both physically and mentally due to it.

This weekend has helped me to relearn a lesson I should keep close to heart and not have to relearn.

Everywhere I turn lately I seem to be disappointed by people in general. This makes me sad because I think that you should be able to depend on people. This should not disappoint me due to the fact that I have been disappointed time and again.

The fact that people seem to no longer value true friendship or honesty just strengthens my resolve to not give them my trust.

As dependability and honor become a thing people can do without humanity takes another step twored useless in my eyes.

It seems that I offer myself to people and am given a delusion in return that like mist evaporates when exposed to the sun.

I have been in a funk all day that has just deepened with each interaction with so called civilized people. I think today has put me back on the road to becoming the person I used to be. Someone who has seen the beast that wallows behind the eyes of men and knows there is no redemption left.

I think it is time I released myself from the values that I hold so dear. It seems if I do not I will be beaten beneath the tide of troglodytes who have no use for someone who does not aspire to be one of the beautiful people.

At least by trusting no one but myself I will not be let down.


Well I guess that is enuf from me. I hope I will feel better about life in general when I wake up. If not ohh well.




Kim