foreverfailure

Strange Attraction's and Shopping For Shoes.....

First post in a while. I've been away at a friends. No mobile signal, no internet access, it was great. I got to fall off the planet for the best part of 5 days.

Since I last posted things have become a little clearer with Sara at work. I had a chat with one of her friends and discovered she is sort of seeing someone. Apparently it's complicated and so on and off that Sara doesn't even know what's going on. Sophie's advice, hang on in there and see how things go. No as it turns out Sophie has a thing for the guy sitting opposite me so we made a deal. As she's as nervous about her crush as I am mine for every step of "bravery" one takes towards letting our respective people know we exist the other will match it. We also have developed a code word to discuss things over IM at work, "Shoe Shopping". Named so after the art of staring at your crush's feet and not knowing if you're brave enough to look them in the eye in case you go scarlet red and lose the ability of coherent speech.

So I've come back from my time away and done some life laundry, deleted my MySpace profile, suspended my FaceBook profile and deleted my Gothicmatch profile. This is the only thing I am keeping, nobody I know knows I have this account so I can talk freely and get things off my chest. Mind you, nobody here reads this so that's even better. Now if I could just figure out the forums.....

I think my strange attraction with Sara must end. Time to walk out of the Shoe Shop and leave Sophie browsing alone. I'm going to leave fate to decide where to take me next, I don't think I have the energy or the confidence to start something new. Unfortunately my heart is still in Vancouver and until I deal with that I am better off alone.

Ok i'm off to work on the corset I started making on wednesday.