forestherb

There is a force within me that is not me. Its ultimate goal is to sabotage everything good about my life. It has warped my thoughts, and has now taken on a voice. I heard its voice yesterday, and everything it said was bullshit. Is this voice always whispering these things to me. In my sleep? Is it convincing me of this nonsense?

I wonder if it is the same force that gripped me so violently twice in the past. Jolting my body and causing intense visions.

I was told once that I was half human, and half something else. Is it this, or am I possesed by a demon?

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Otherwise, life is good. I had a wonderful afternoon today with Caitlin. I really need her to come camping with me. This last trip was so damn fulfilling.. it would have been perfect to have her there with me. Everybody was laid out in the open air, no tents, with the ones they love right next to them. I was alone, in a high-traffic spot, trying to sleep, getting kicked, and spilled on.
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Marijuana smells good.