Worst Easter ever. Bad feelings, and getting lost. Scary. I hate zombie jesus's birthday. 
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I don't really know what I need to do to work all this shit out. New job? Where? When how? New home? Need a job. Current job: doesnt pay well, shitty boss and coworkers, makes me feel bad. Quit? Would that be smart? I don't know..
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I want to move to a different state. Virginia is expensive and yucky. I can't ask caitlin to leave.. she's not even 18, but even if she was.. its not fair to her. What is fair to me?
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Fuck cars and streets and toll roads. I swear to all the forces of nature that if nothing more comes of my life than the endless concrete bullshit that i'm seeing these days.. I WILL kill myself. I know that because for that to be true, every last bit of hope and motivation will have had to leave me. I'll be dead already. Speaking of that...
Terry Schaivo is on her 10th day on her own, finally away from her parents.. thats whats happening right? She's going to go to college? Hah. Shoot her (it).
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I don't really know what I need to do to work all this shit out. New job? Where? When how? New home? Need a job. Current job: doesnt pay well, shitty boss and coworkers, makes me feel bad. Quit? Would that be smart? I don't know..
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I want to move to a different state. Virginia is expensive and yucky. I can't ask caitlin to leave.. she's not even 18, but even if she was.. its not fair to her. What is fair to me?
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Fuck cars and streets and toll roads. I swear to all the forces of nature that if nothing more comes of my life than the endless concrete bullshit that i'm seeing these days.. I WILL kill myself. I know that because for that to be true, every last bit of hope and motivation will have had to leave me. I'll be dead already. Speaking of that...
Terry Schaivo is on her 10th day on her own, finally away from her parents.. thats whats happening right? She's going to go to college? Hah. Shoot her (it).