forestherb

There is a force within me that is not me. Its ultimate goal is to sabotage everything good about my life. It has warped my thoughts, and has now taken on a voice. I heard its voice yesterday, and everything it said was bullshit. Is this voice always whispering these things to me. In my sleep? Is it convincing me of this nonsense?

I wonder...
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A wonderful camping trip. I am so lucky that I didn't have to work, since it was planned pretty spontaneously.

It was about 10 people. It was a beach by a big river. I felt in heaven. People felt so different and so much better. Jess gave me a bite of her sandwich which amazed me, and then someone (maybe jess again) said something and...
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Today is my first day at home that I do not have to work, or go to school. Great fun. Good feelings are flowing smoothly, as I pack up some supplies to go camping with many friends.

I absolutely love nice people.

Today Marja came over and we had good conversations. Shes nice in every way. We tried to set up the Nintendo, but I think I'm missing a cable. Very dissapointing. I have many games. I can't wait to play the original Zelda again.

Then Frank (a cook at work) told me all about Peru and interesting herbs, drinks, medicines, etc....
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My new neighbor has probably 10 bird feeders, a bird bath, some big tray where the birds can dance around in their food, etc. So there are tons of birds everywhere.. and they are eating my plants! Last night while they were devouring my delosperma bosseranums, they knocked two pots off of the deck. What am I supposed to do about this? I'm going to...
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I got my key early, so i could move at my own pace, since i am downsizing in certain aspects so I have a lot to purge.

My mother enters a manic episode.

We have 8 hours to get everything packed. She throws everything into her van in an hour, breaking many things.

We drive to my house.

Stuff is unloaded. I tell her that...
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Poppers are stupid and stupid. Smell an acetone-smelling solvent liquid so that you get a head rush that is due only to vasodialation.. meaning your pulse is going nuts and blood is actually flooding to your brain. Great.

spikes! studs! bullet belts! LAME! studsandspikes.com..boohoo
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I took a bit of a break from social interaction recently because of extreme stress associated with finding a new job and home. And upon my return, i found all those who i previously highly respected had turned into junkies. Meth and Coke are the hottest things around it seems. All the guys who only smoked marijuana, are...
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Maybe hitler just killed unfavored minority groups because he was able to rally hatred against them. Maybe he just wanted to lower the population in general. I can understand that. I'd say a pretty good way to weed out the population is for every person who uses "goddamn motherfucking bitch" in any context to just die. Maybe even "get'er dun!" Every Bush supporter? No, better...
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This is great:
Mother of God