foreshadowboxer

oh yes, i didn't have to get up at five am for work (actually it would have been 4am if i felt good enought to workout). i got to lay in my bed, hold my pillow close and let loose a flood of dreams to soothe my weakened spirits. tonight i think i am going to work on some new photos and play around with image and light. plus i want a shot of me near my tree. i need more tree shots before the end comes. how i wish i could pack her up and take her with me where ever i go, but a tree should stay where it places it's home. got to speak with sally recently and that made me happy. it is always nice to be great friends with a former lover and partner. my friend laura called up all drunk the other night and we had a great conversation about the things in our lives. she called me the next day to apologize for any disturbance she may have caused and to say she really enjoyed talking to me. it is nice to be there when someone needs you. it will be the biggest reason i will move from this state. no one needs me here, i am just an object to the people around here. a joke. i need my community back and i am going to find a place where i fit in. debating about disconnecting my phones. i realize i use them about once or twice a week, doesn't seem worth it to keep them on much longer. i will sit and ruminate about this decision before i make a rash move. should i or shouldn't i go see a movie tonight? if i don't i will rent another movie and watch it after my work out. the nice part about today is that most of the college students are leaving town and that means more quiet nights!

well, i have to be getting back to work. and lunch, i can't forget lunch.

this man makes the day better:



lexiphanicism

love that word and always will.

haven't been updating much because i have been to busy to sit down and write. things are going and with them i must follow.

found a really good vegetarian restaurant in austin called veggie heaven. if i have any free time this weekend i am going to go up there for lunch and used records. looking in to new places to live. sure, i am going to miss my tree but i can't stand my neighbors, management and appliances.

i am bitter and i need to resolve that. one way i am doing that is ending more of my relationships. it will make it easier when the time comes to go. another is exercising more. i was working out everyday until i got sick but i am starting to feel better and will be starting up my sweat time probably today.

Hopefully i am going to see Rasputina next week. Hippie goth chicks playing cello with a drummer...what more could i want. Justine will be jealous but i will come home and tell her all about it. i want to go see the texas rollergirls this weekend but i may put it off until the june 5th show. plus the geek in me is excited for the last star wars, so much so that i might hit up the midnight show next week.

two of my best friends are out of town for a week and i miss them highly. wishing my other friends would return my calls but realizing that will probably not happen. my parents are taking me out for italian food in san antonio next week...one of my favorite places in the world. still trying to find someone to hang out with me next weekend. would be sad if i don't.

a week and a half until my sister and her husband come to town. i may even get over myself and go to the water park with them. even though i won't see them much while they are here i will try to squeeze in at least a day or two to play around with the family.

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